Aug 31
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to — when and as going on Facebook, to be ‘possessed’ by the feelings that come forth within me as an ‘out-flow’ within the moment — because when and as I look at Facebook, and my eyes get slightly bigger, for instance, and/or my mouth …
Aug 30
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to conform to/within the mind in and as competition — within winning and losing through and within backchat — proliferated into and as emotional reactions of “I don’t want to argue because I understand what you are saying.” — as within this particular-specific back-chat of …
Aug 29
This entry is part 12 of 18 in the series Fear of Being a Man And the way I did this initially was by going to the thrift store to buy some clothes that were designed for the opposite sex. I initially bought two velvet attires, as velvet reminded me of ‘water’ which I connected …
Aug 28
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to form character-relationships in such a way that I become addicted to and as the experiences within the participation with a particular-specific character based on the formation of a relationship with the fear of not existing in and as the particular-specific point that I justified …
Aug 27
This entry is part 11 of 18 in the series Fear of Being a Man Also, I see, realize, and understand that children like to explore different things in life, and within exploring different things, opens up new ‘experiences’. One thing that I explored in and as my life was seeing how it would feel …
Aug 26
I commit myself to show that having a starting-point of fear means that I am not aligned equal to and one with and as what is being communicated / conveyed. Thus, it is to do self-forgiveness, and to equalize myself with and as what is being communicated, and check my starting-point to make sure it’s …
Aug 25
Note: Original Date: 8/15/2012 Here, I am doing self-forgiveness for my experience with eating strawberry shortcake, and the back-chat that I had about it I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear eating strawberry shortcake when and as my agreement partner asked me what I wanted to eat for dinner today. …
Aug 24
This entry is part 10 of 18 in the series Fear of Being a ManIn this blog, we’re going to talk about financial responsibilities, and how, living the ‘innocent’, care-free life — as a child was never meant to be an established lifestyle for the duration of one’s life, but instead, is simply a stage …
Aug 23
This entry is part 9 of 18 in the series Fear of Being a ManIn this blog, we are continuing from the last post as seeing, realizing, and understanding more on why the passenger sub-character fears having a ‘child’ because of the child represents what the passenger sub-character desires from the child sub-character. I forgive …
Aug 22
This entry is part 8 of 18 in the series Fear of Being a ManWithin defining the differences between opinion, mind-perspective, and self-perspective, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define, from the minds-perspective, what femininity is, and thus, connect femininity to the ‘passenger sub-character’ as the person who makes the …
Aug 21
This entry is part 7 of 18 in the series Fear of Being a ManI remember the last time that I sat in the back with my parents in the front. I was in my early 20s, and a thought came up as me missing the times when and as I was a child wherein …
Aug 20
This entry is part 6 of 18 in the series Fear of Being a Man When my parents would go somewhere in the car, I would be in the back while they would either be talking, or arguing. I perceived the driver (my step-dad) as the ‘leader’, and my mother as the secondary leader, but …
Aug 19
This entry is part 5 of 18 in the series Fear of Being a Man One thing that I would explore if I place myself into a position as a child are books such as science, mathematics, and computer programming. When and as participating in sex, I see that I ‘lose’ the opportunity to explore …
Aug 18
I commit myself to see, realize, and understand that the current structure of the world system is not best for all, thus, will allow the proliferation of debt to be the engine of which interest is created for the sake of creating balance for the sustainment, and integrity of the monetary supply. This creates a particular-specific …
Aug 17
This entry is part 4 of 18 in the series Fear of Being a ManIn this post, we’re continuing with some self-forgiveness statements on why a wife / female must submit to their husband / a man regardless of culture, and finishing up on self-forgivenesses in relation to the first paragraph. I forgive myself that …
Aug 16
This entry is part 3 of 18 in the series Fear of Being a Man In this blog, I’m looking at the point of sex. I realize that in and as my agreement, there is a resistance to it. When and as I have sex, there is this experience that I am ‘becoming a man’. So I …
Aug 15
This entry is part 2 of 18 in the series Fear of Being a ManSo I explained in the last blog about the fear of being a man in relation to my parents, and how I see my parents as the ones who should have sex based on seeing sex as an activity for people …
Aug 14
This entry is part 1 of 18 in the series Fear of Being a ManIn this blog, I’m looking at the point of sex. I realize that in and as my agreement, there is a resistance to it. When and as I have sex, there is this experience that I am ‘becoming a man’. So I …
Aug 12
I commit myself to see, realize, and understand — as the World System — that creates and support a system that works on the principle of debt is the creation of a system to protect a particular-specific structure that exists — to maintain that structure while everything else only exists for the life of that …
Aug 11
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself — as the World System — create such a system that works on the principle of debt — rather than working on principles to establish a system that is best for all wherein no individual within the world has to find creative ways to accumulate …
Aug 10
I commit myself to see, realize, and understand that I do not have any ‘real’ friends if I am not self-directive in how I approach the people that I call my friends. I commit myself to use self-honesty to debunk the friendship-integrity as how my ‘friendships’ are in-fact structured as — because if I allow …
Aug 09
I commit myself to see, realize, and understand that my words are equal to and one with and as me, thus, saying that “I am going to cry.” is in-fact a declaration of needing to release something such as a particular-specific thought / patterns of thoughts that I have subjugated myself to. Thus, I commit myself …
Aug 08
I commit myself to see, realize, and understand that arranging words in and as a conservative matter to not stimulate emotions is in-fact supporting the perpetuation of the mind in and as thoughts, feelings, and emotions — making those thoughts, feelings, and emotions ‘real’. When and as I see myself arranging my words in a …
Aug 07
I commit myself to see, realize, and understand that any relationship that is not expressed in self-honesty is a lie. Therefore, I commit myself to establish all of my relationships in and as self-honesty through and as being clear, and direct rather than evasive in and as my approach when speaking with someone. And if …
Aug 06
I commit myself to see, realize, and understand that being ‘caught by surprise’ when someone asked me for some assistance is a mind-reaction showing me that I am not equal to and one with and as another in making the decision to help them out. Therefore, I am not really helping another in self-honesty, but …
Aug 05
This thus is total separation from the ‘hereness’ as the reality of the dynamics of the relationship. Thus really, there is no actual friendship within and as taking / adhering to such a position of no self-direction, or no self-honesty in and as a relationship, but instead, allowing oneself to be spellbound by the emotional and …
Aug 04
This is a continuation of self-forgivenesses from Adapting the “Altruistic Character” Part 3…. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand who I am within saying ”I am going to cry.”, and I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to question whether I am …
Aug 03
So I’ve been working on challenging the point of Altruism for some time so what I did was asked him questions to challenge his inquiry such as: “When do you get paid?”, “No one else there has money?”, “Your mom or dad doesn’t have money [that they can loan you]?”, “How did you run out …
Aug 02
On Thursday, July 26th I received a text from an acquaintance overseas. The issue was that he was unable to go to work because he ran out of money in between pay periods. This caught me by surprise because I was in-fact dealing with the point of altruism with my sister — picking her up …
Aug 01
On Thursday, July 26th I received a text from an acquaintance overseas. The issue was that he was unable to go to work because he ran out of money in between pay periods. This caught me by surprise because I was in-fact dealing with the point of altruism with my sister — picking her up freely …
